Well is it a bad start I spent half an hour on Google working out how to do this before I even started writing? Now I dont know what I should write and indeed why I should write, after all will anyone ever read it...and if they do will they even care...?

Aged 47 with a failed marriage and 2 brilliant (and probably as mad as me) kids and I still feel like I'm looking for an aim in life! But you know what it is slowly falling into place...the only problem being is what my aim is isnt really going to please anyone else! Dont know who to talk to about it, so I guess the wilderness of the world wide web will do!

Best start somewhere and where best but right in the middle, after all who knows where the beginning was and even what the end might be!

The last couple of years have hit me smack between the eyes and has kind of scared the shit out of me
 Fell victim to an extended period of depression when I finally sussed there was too much out there that was beyond my control....being a control freak aint much good when you can't control what you need to keep you on the level!

Growing number of my friends and peers have been diagnosed and passed away with that fecking CANCER...and I know that I'm no longer invincible...and you know it aint dying that scares me, its leaving my kids behind
Got back with my husband after 7 years apart...and now dont even know if it's what I want...but if I bow out then so many people are going to be so distressed

So starting where then?

Hey you got back with your man, fantastic, so happy for you, it's meant to be, wow........but is it any of these things, first time in my life I have ever went "back" I NEVER go back so why did I do it now?